Fever Dream

I watched my grandfather smoke himself to death

And I know my daddy still copes with a cigarette

I guess it ain't suicide

When you do it in slow motion

I guess that's just life

So help me my lover I need some of your therapy

The demons been dealt down the trunk of my family tree

She said your head is disconnected from your heart

And just cause you're in pain don't make this art

If you're so smart

Why don't you figure out happiness

Are you really a masochist

Like me

Maybe you aren't such a Bonafide genius

Cause you still walk between us

In this fever dream

I watch my mother nearly work herself six feet deep

She did what she needed so we could eat

I'm breaking the cycle

I'm going to make it out of this nine to five

She said child

If you're so smart

Why don't you figure out happiness

Are you really a masochist

Like me

Maybe you aren't such a Bonafide genius

Cause you still walk between us

In this fever dream

I'm not a lover

I'm just a shill for human decency

I believe in charity

But I'm living in poverty

So anything to get me some sweet serotonin release

I am a martyr

But survival is my core belief

So will you stand by me

In my self-righteous solidarity

Or are you too busy obsessed with your complexity

If you're so smart figure out happiness

Are you really a narcissist

Maybe you aren't

Such a Bonafide genius

Cause you still walk between us

If you're so smart

Why don't you figure out happiness

Are you really a masochist

And maybe you aren't some modern-day Jesus

Cause you're still right here with us

If you're so wise

Why do you come off so passionless

My money's under the mattress

You can take it and leave

It's just a fever dream

It's just a fever dream

It's just a fever