Aikido on the Kitchen Floor is Kind of a Lot

I apologize for playing with your eyes

But I'm obsessed with you

Rolling out of bed is morning in my head

'Cause I'm obsessed with you

Rose mirages into vases

I don't stand a chance

Quiet girls with wrist corsages

Cordial silence, I can't dance

So, I could hold your hand, but keep you at arms length

Or hang me from a branch too high to climb and shake

But I'm afraid of damn near everything

Less rare than scarce, less diamond than rough

Unlikely to be more than just the coal you fail to crush, but

I love you so much, it scares me half to death

I'm not used to this

How did it happen, baby?

Oh, I love you so much, it scares me half to death

The other half, I guess I'm giving to you

I still don't know who you are

I only know that I'm still lonely

That morbid sort where neither company can cure me

And the more you reassure, the less I trust

But still you gave me your heart!

I only gave you my body

Honestly thought nobody'd want it, let alone notice it's gone

And so I left it home, but now

Now, now, now!

I told Doctor Tillis to prescribe an illness

But he said his schedule's filled with

Children who need Prozac, Prilosec and Lo-jack

Triple-sec and Lexapro for second guesses, drugs that heal

So we can touch instead of feel

I swear, I'm really trying!

I'm still in the process, but I'm making progress

I promise I honestly wanna prove improvement's possible

I swear, I'm so fucking sorry!

I'm not a good person, I'm not even a person at all

But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all!

And write a fucking song about it because it has to be about my goddamn drama

Fuck!

Did I really

Have any of that gravity? Maybe you're quicksand

Because I really couldn't tell how deep my footprints went

The vertex of my redemption arc

The searching of that virgin heart

I'm catatonic in your arms, crying "How did I cause so much harm?!"

I'm down pounding my head against the kitchen floor

Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours

Don't say "I'm sorry, but this can't go on"

I know you've got scars of your own

But hide my knives before you go

I'll either live or die alone

I love you so much, it scares me half to death

I'm not used to this

How did it happen, baby?

Oh, I love you so much, it scares me half to death

The other half, I guess I'm giving to you