Do I Deserve It

I can only take a compliment from a stranger

I don't trust the people who are closest to me

To tell the truth

'Cause what if they're just saving my feelings?

And they pity me

So they just say what's nice

I enjoy abuse

Because if you're mean to me

I can trust you'll tell the truth

I enjoy abuse

'Cause I feel like I deserve it

Do I deserve it?

Do I deserve it?

I crave affection constantly, but thеn once I get it

I'll remain unsatisfiеd

And there's nothing I can do to fill the hole

That's gaping inside me

That is there because I have no real self worth

I enjoy abuse

Because if you're mean to me

I can trust you'll tell the truth

I enjoy abuse

'Cause I feel like I deserve it

Do I deserve it?

Do I deserve it?

I've had so many friends

Who've left me on a whim

Suddenly cut ties for reasons that I can't explain

And yet I end up feeling I'm the one to blame

'Cause if everybody loved me

I must be doing something wrong, right?

It's the only thing I think of at night

People shouldn't make the same mistake twice

But

I enjoy abuse