Tourniquet

Think i might try to try to sail off the edge of the world

But i'll probably make one big great circle the way that i always do

Yeah, "sometimes you get so close to someone

You end up on the other side of them"

I'm comforted it's not the end, it's just a loop

Building collapse, pressure outweighs the pain

I don't feel sad, i don't feel anything

Only will when the blood returns

I'd rather be numb than know how bad i'm hurt

So i'll keep the tourniquet on

Take it back, shove it down

You can get a new car but can't forget the way that it sounds

Or feels to crash, high speed impact

No police, the first person i called was my dad

Now i'll walk myself down the aisle

I'll be the parent and the least favorite only child

Laundry days, 2pm

Some people die before they're dead

Building collapse, pressure outweighs the pain

I don't feel sad, i don't feel anything

Only will when the blood returns

I'd rather be numb than know how bad i'm hurt

So i'll keep the tourniquet on

I'll block it out and off

Cuz i don't need anyone, i don't need anyone

I don't need anyone at all

If i keep the tourniquet on

I spend every night with the tv on

I can't bear to be alone with my own thoughts

Maybe we always start right back where we end

Don't know if i'm god or if i'm sisyphus

Would my suffering be special then?

Monetizable? immortalized in a myth?

If there's no good thing or evil that people won't one day forget

Oh, i'll keep on the tourniquet

I'll keep the tourniquet on

I'll block it out and off

Cuz i dont need anyone, i dont need anyone, i dont need anyone at all

So i keep the tourniquet on